43060) It’s weird that when I see pictures of dangerously thin girls, I don’t envy and find it attractive. But when it comes to myself, I go to so many extremes to lose as much weight as possible like I’ll never be satisfied with my body. Healthy doesn’t look good on me.
(Source: confessionsabouteatingdisorders)
Had a job interview scheduled for 30 minutes ago.
Forgot about it until just now. Better go find somewhere else to work…
FOR EVERYONE WHO ASKS ME ABOUT LAXATIVES, AND FOR EVERYONE WHO THINKS THEY’RE A GOOD WAY TO LOSE “WEIGHT” AND GET A NICE TEENY TINY TUMMY.
I am here to tell you that you are WRONG. You will not get a teeny tiny tummy. You will get this. I’ve barely eaten in days and yet my stomach still looks like it is pregnant with a toddler because my colon is so inflamed from laxative abuse. It has been like this for years. Now, anytime I eat/consume anything, it swells. And it fucking sucks. So there you go. Laxatives in all their ~m1@~ glory.
i feel like this is something people need to see and know about.
this makes me really sad.
Raising awareness can prevent this.
Mine starts to look like this.. It’s not a beautiful feeling.
This happens to me all the time.
This photo is the reason I threw all my stashed laxatives out. The poor, poor girl.
This is so sad. And she’s so thin—I mean you can see her ribs and her hips are clearly defined. I hope she gets better and this stops others from starting/continuing to abuse laxatives.
I know I haven’t been posting much lately, but I’ve been in a really good mood today for some reason—I must not be depressive/hypomanic—
and I guess I just wanted make a more positive post. Most of my posts are pretty depressing, since I’m very, very, very rarely in a “normal” mood and so my thinking and emotions are messed up (unless you know anything about Bipolar Disorder you’ll probably be confused, sorry). So, I just wanted to share that I’m actually happy today! And that I hope you all are having a nice day, and if you aren’t that you have a good day soon. Even though today hasn’t been perfect, for one I have a ton of homework an absurd amount of homework tonight that I probably won’t be able to get done—although I’ve been working really hard—I’ve still been in a good mood. None of my thoughts while doing homework were “well if I don’t finish it I can just kill myself,” which is what I would normally think. Although I probably won’t get it all done, it doesn’t seem like the end of the world, and that’s really refreshing.
I know I don’t actually interact with most of you, but regardless you guys really help me out even if we never talk. As stupid and superficial as it sounds, it makes me happy when someone likes/reblogs my posts and it can actually pick me up on a bad day. So for any of you that have never talked to me, don’t be afraid to. I’m really nice to other people, even if I’m not to myself. If you need help with something, or just want someone to talk to, send me a message and I promise I’ll respond (unless tumblr screws up and I don’t really get the message, in which case I’m super sorry and don’t hate me.), although it might take a couple days, because I’m very busy and not always on, but I will get back eventually.
And I’m sorry this was so long, I swear it was only supposed to be a couple sentences.
Since it’s night, I hope you all have a great night!
